I have been gone way too long. A 4th kid takes everything i have right now. Thats not a bad thing just means photography isnt primary right now.
Here is a picture to tide you over.
I love photography. I really do. I really really do, but i have found the last few months to be an unmotivated self critical self-depricating void. In other words i haven’t given myself the freedom or the space to create. Consequently the other aspects of my life have suffered.
Today i read an article on 500px. I didnt really engage with the article and the suggestions were almost pointless (why im not sharing the link). It did however remind me that i do actually want to take pictures. My twitter feed was full of hundreds of worldphotographyday posts and i just happened on a scene with aome very dramatic lighting.
My wife had cooked supper on the barbeque and left our window open. Smoke filled our room and the setting sun cut a sharp beam through the swirling smoke. At first i just took pictures of the “cool smoke”. An amateur mistake forsure but then my daughter happened into my room with her mettalic winged butterfly. She was excited to dance and play in the smoke and the sun reflected off the butterfly wings making a magical bright glow.
Here is the result…
Happy world photography day!
I am starting to wonder if it is my own sense of “not good enough” that has taken my joy of photography away. My own critical eye sees only the imperfections when i go to share a picture i have taken with someone else. I am afraid all of the “things i have done wrong” in lighting technique composition and post processing will be immediately obvious to everone else.
I have to admit I have trouble sharing my enjoyment of my photos with others. Maybe it is the uncertainty of what i really like about it.
Long story short i am posting a picture i took of my daughter. I like it for almost all of the reasons i don’t like it, but i do like. I really like it and i need to be ok with enjoying it rather than dumping on all the parts that i “should” have changed.
My biggest critic is myself. My greatest triumph os to continue to create even where i might have failed. To discover how many more ways there are to tell a story in photography.
Spring appears to have arrived rather abruptly. The grass is showing already. I have hung up my winter coat and we are dealing with the infinite growth of pot holes on our streets.
I’m loving it.
So to celebrate here is my last winter picture of the year. After ice skating downtown I shot this picture of our central square at victoria park.
Check out this awesome photo from 500px: https://500px.com/photo/101240419
Call it seasonal affective disorder. Call it depression. Call it laziness or priorities or apathy or a change of scenery. Call it what you will but I spent the last month without picking up my camera. I didn’t post process much either. Mostly I have avoided photography because for a while I lost sight of the enjoyment of it. Comparing myself to others and getting frustrated with images not turning out made me competely forget why I take pictures. So I put my camera down.
After a month I think I can finally say I want to take pictures again. I remember why I enjoy it and what I love about it. That doesn’t mean im not discouraged by my past blundera but that I still want to learn, I want to explore and I dont mind making mistakes as long as some of those are pictures I will remember and cherish and be proud of for the rest of my life. Not every actuation of the shutter will change the world but it will help me to see. And sometimes I know now I just need to put the camera down and connect with the world around me.
I wish I had some triumphal image to share with you all or some amazing announcement about becoming a pro photographer but truthfully im just happy to be back. Meandering my way through this garden of life taking a few pictures to remind me how much I have to be in awe of.
Thanks for joinig me on this journey. I promise more photos soon!
Today I had some time away from home without kids. Just free time to go exploring.
I went to one of my favorite places to take pictures.
Here is a little something I shot out there.
I set the exposure extremely long and my densest neutral density filter has a terrible purple tinge to it, but for this image I think it worked just great.
Let me know what you think.
I started going through my archives. They begin in 2008 when I switched to digital. I bought my d60 that day my first daughter was born and have shot over 25000 frames on 3 different cameras since.
I have to say I still need to go back through my film shots too but looking back 6 years and a handful of months my photography has improved by miles.
That being said I still captured aome great moments, memories and stories. If you follow my 500px account you may recognize this old photo I dug out of my archives and post processed again. Im sad to say I switched to shooting raw about 3 months after this was taken. But the tools in photoshop still allow for huge adjustments to jpgs as well.
You decide if you like this image better the original way or the new way
Link to original:
The new version: